Deployment. The bittersweet of the military life. Mr. B has been deployed for 4 months and we just received an email saying we're halfway through but there isn't a definite date on when they are coming home. He left early so why wouldn't he come home early? I hate the uncertainty of not knowing exactly when he's coming home. On one hand I love all the benefits of the military from the insurance to the shopping discounts but on the other hand I feel like I've sacrificed my husband and father of my children. Hubbs wasn't here for the birth of his 2nd baby and now he's 3 months and the only way he knows his son is through pictures. He's missed b-day parties, anniversaries and holidays.
We had a conversation about reenlistment today. We have the choice of reenlisting and him being on the ship for another year or not reenlisting and trying to survive in this economy.I feel like I want him to stay in for the benefits and the money but, part of me wants him just to get out and be home with us. I grew up a military brat and always wanted to marry someone in the military just like my daddy, but I never knew what the military really was about because my mom just made it seem so cool when in reality, the life of a military wife is very sacrificial and hard. Don't get me wrong I love the perks of being a "sailor's wife" but I really just wished my husband was here.
I feel the same way, even though I am not married yet to my sailor. I grew up also as a military brat and my mom didn't make it seem so hard. But it's different being the wife, girlfriend, or fiance. I want my boyfriend to stay in not because it's a stable job and you get to travel, but at the same I agree, I do want to see him a lot more too.
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