Sunday, May 1, 2011

April showers bring May flowers & MISSING HUSBANDS!

May is THE month. 
Yep, in a couple of weeks I'll get to see, hug, kiss and just hold this guy again
(He rarely smiles)
Am I excited? 
Nope, I'm BEYOND excited. My anxiety is at a record breaking HIGH!! 
I've got so much going on, I will be distracted enough to get through!! 

As for the month of April, I was a little MIA.
So to sum up the month:
Darryl turned 2! 
His TERRIBLE 2's and so far they've been CRAZY!!!
And now Kaleb is "real" crawling and not doing the wounded solider scoot..
So, I haven't had time to do anything but BREATHE (and work)
But luckily, my "single mom" term ends soon!!

Well, I have lots of cleaning, registering cars, packing for vacation home and just being working mommy to do.....
See ya when I see ya!!!

Sunday, April 17, 2011

My new obsession

I'm homecoming obsessed!
I've watched EVERY episode of Coming Home. 
I don't know what it is but this show is ADDICTING. 
I'm just so anxious about Butler being home soon!
I will be reunited with my best friend in a few WEEKS! (yes, WEEKS) 
 I watch the show in envy because it usually hits so close to home (literally close like over the bridge in Norfolk home!) and I just think, why not me? But I'm okay, he'll be home soon enough.

Since Butler is in port, I got another video call today.
Today was Butler's first time seeing Kaleb moving and not in still pictures. 
It made me tear up to see him smile at Kaleb in a way he smiled the day he seen Darryl being born. 
I can't wait to just see him hold him and how they interact with each other.
Darryl was so excited and couldn't stop smiling and saying "daddy"
This really made my day!! 
Trying to keep busy and keep my nerves and anxiety calm! 
April is almost done and MAY is almost here. 
And  MAY is what I've been waiting for!!!! 

Happy Sunday!

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Wordless Wednesday

This is what he finds amusing. 
(disregard the pile of laundry in the background)

can I have some of that water?

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Month 7 is DONE.

Yes, month 7 is OVER. 
Good old March has drawn to a close.
One month closer to being with my hunny bunny!
This month has been a roller coaster.
I've felt every emotion you can imagine. My bipolar-ness kicked in.
But in all, I've gotten through it....
For my March Bucket List, I've gotten 80% of it done!! 
[yay me!]

April, will be my month I'm claiming it.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Murphy's Law strikes.

Murphy's law strikes again! 
I have no idea how this happened, but I was locked out the car by my lovely 2 yr old.
Yes, my TWO year old. 
 After doing a little retail therapy to cheer up my already  dampened day, I went to pick up the boys. Like most mothers, I had a long day and couldn't wait to see my babies. I leave my car running so the car would be nice and toasty for the boys when they got in. Just in case I got locked out I took my remote off the keys and took them inside with me. I gather the boys and walk outside. Anxious to get home, I hurriedly throw Kaleb in the car and run around to the other side to throw Darryl in his seat. "Yes, a nap!" my thoughts as I strap Monkey into his seat. Subconsciously, I placed the remote in his seat and shut the door. As I go to open the front door Monkey presses the lock button and locked the car doors. In a state of panic I run to the sitters door to ask if she knew how to open the door. She was no help (Love her dearly though) on that part. I start to try to coach Monkey to press the lock button.
[FYI: he knows how to take his self out of his seat, roll the windows down AND open the door]
He presses EVERY button except the unlock.
Sitter gets this great idea to call a locksmith.
I wait still trying to coach Monkey into pressing unlock. 
Then, I hear sirens get closer and closer.
A fire truck pulls up and out jumps three fire fighters as if the car was on fire.
They approach the scene with serious faces. 
After they accessed the situation, up comes two police cars. 
They on the other hand were already tickled pink with what was going on. 
The police officer walks up to the window to see if he can coach monkey into unlocking the car and Monkey just looks and laughs at the man.
10-15 min later pop a lock [the lifesaver] comes and gets the car open. 
Luckily, they don't charge for emergency situations! 

I'm sure I was the laughing stock of the Newport News fire and police departments.

I was a little upset and annoyed today but of course my babies always make me forget what I was angry for 
They are just so freaking adorable! 

Monday, March 28, 2011

Operation Homecoming.

I've been on some sort of blogging hiatus due to writer's block! 
But, I'm back now!

Yesterday marked month 7 of deployment and it's finally coming to an end which means it's time to think about OPERATION HOMECOMING
This is my first deployment so I'm trying to take in everything I can to make it the best I can for me and Butler. Today, I heard from two of my friends who have already gone through 2 or 3 of them already. What I learned is:
-Parking is scarce and you need to be there early to get a spot.
-There will be benches on the pier and if you want to sit on them, gotta be there early.
-It may take the boat about 6 hours to actually show up.
-It takes forever for them to dock and to let the sailors off 
-And traffic will be ridiculous.
Now, this has ruined EVERYTHING I thought this would be! For some reason I have the fairytale that Butler gets off the boat, drops his sea bag and runs to me and the boys (well not that perfectly, but something of that nature.) 
Now my worries are what should I wear if rains, what time should I make my way to NOB, what am I gonna do with the boys while I wait, where should I park, wear is Butler's sea bag going (I drive a tiny neon with 2 car seats and a double stroller in the trunk), whose gonna take pics son on so forth.... This should have been something I should have started a month ago! We'll see how this goes!

In other news, my Monkey peed on the potty today!! I was SUPER excited!!! Hope this is a good start to potty training!! 

Sunday, March 20, 2011

I have so much more respect for the wives whose husbands are on the front lines in Iraq and Afghanistan.
These men have sacrificed a lot. I never realized how scary it was to be a military wife and will never experience how scary it is to be an Army or Marine wife. Not that Butler hasn't sacrificed a lot in the Navy, but as I think about it, they don't put themselves into that much great danger as the Army and Marines do. 
I don't get how my mom dealt with my dad being gone for a year straight in Korea or Egypt. How she didn't dwell on the fact that he wasn't here and how she went on day by day not knowing if they would come to let her know her husband died. She did a great job of disguising that my dad was gone and I thank her for being both my mother and father at times. 
I feel scared and nervous with Butler being secure on a boat in the middle of the ocean away from danger so I can just imagine how she or anybody else whose significant other is on the front lines feels. This Libya Operation Odyssey Dawn has me shaken. I've cried for the past two nights. I know, really dumb. My head realizes it, but my heart isn't getting the picture. My heart tells me to cry my eyes out until he's home but my head is saying he's okay what the hell are you crying for!
I don't think I'll be completely sane until he is sitting here next to me and I can see that he's okay in person.  
My anxiousness is starting to get the best of my emotions. I can't wait to see him home! 

Friday, March 18, 2011

First day of the beach

I was  off work for the first time this week and we couldn't let the lovely 80 degree weather waste away.
So, we dug out the shorts and enjoyed a day in the sun! 
Our first stop was to lunch at Buffalo Wild Wings.
Darryl decided to get his "GQ" on and pose on the curb 

(I love this little kid) 

After that we headed back to Hampton to take a stroll on Buckroe.
This was the first beach day for the summer season 

Kaleb's first day ever putting his feet in the sand 

Darryl being Darryl and exploring
He was interested in the sun setting.

In all, we really took advantage of this beautiful day! 
I hope more come soon! 

Thursday, March 17, 2011

My deployment letter

Dear Deployment,
We are finally near a close. We've had our ups and downs, but I've grown to appreciate you and all that you have taught me. At first, I hated you and really didn't want anything to do with you but now I actually like you (but it's just a tad, so don't flatter yourself and keep appearing in my marriage.) You stole my husband, but we can call a truce since you'll be returning him soon. I thank you for teaching me what bills looked like and how to pay them, showing me that I really do need Butler as much as I rant and rave that I don't, and that I really need to go get birth control ASAP because my boys are ENOUGH right now especially because you're = the mistress that keeps coming back. In all honesty, you did more than I give you credit. Because of you, my bills are lower, less laundry, my grocery bill is twice as less than when Butler was home, I have the whole bed to myself and can sleep peacefully without the snoring! But, I'm really over you now and would really love if you gave my husband back.


Tuesday, March 15, 2011

The End is approaching!

We are in the home stretch! 

It's finally time to start preparing from homecoming. It's like a mirage in the desert, we can see it but just can't touch it. 
 I'm a semi-perfectionist so everything has to be perfect, well on my end at least. No telling with the military how this will go.
I've been looking at homecoming banners, and I don't know what I want to pick. I'm still working on it.
Luckily, I'll get to stand under the "new daddy tent" since littlest Butler was born after deployment. 

Tomorrow I decided I am finally going to a FRG meeting. I decided I couldn't knock it until I try it, plus i want to know what I've been missing since Butler can only say so much and is somewhat clueless. I've had my doubt about the FRG and the negative connotation it has really swayed what I thought about it. I just thought that I wouldn't fit in with the wives because I'm not that wife. I'm very shy when i first meet people and especially when I go to places I have never been with people I've never met. Hopefully I enjoy my FRG meeting and become involved with what goes on with the ship. I'm a little nervous though and I usually amp myself more than needed. But this will go well tomorrow, I know it!
I'll keep you posted!  

Today was DJ & Kaleb's first day at daycare or home daycare. 
They loved it, I'm relieved!!
 I may actually complete all the things on my bucket list for the month!

Friday, March 11, 2011

Short & Sweet

I've had a hectic week.
Still looking for childcare.
Working and trying to keep sane.

But, I'm thankful that Butler and I decided to stay in the US and picked Norfolk as his duty station instead of Japan. 
Praying for Japan.... 

Gotta be to work @ 11....
Keeping this post short and sweet.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Blue camouflage & black eyes

Today was my first day crossing the HRBT and going to NOB.
It felt so awkward to not see Butler's boat from the highway in the pier. I thought once I finally mustered up the strength to go to NOB it would be going to watch the ship pull in. But I bit the bullet and took the plunge across the bridge! 
I went to put us on the waiting list for CDC and pray that our turn comes soon.
Trying to find a provider that will take BOTH of them and I really don't wanna go the daycare route but I can deal if I have to!   

This is what DJ's eye looked like when he woke up this morning. 
It looks horrible.
I keep repeating the words "boys will be boys" in my head to keep from crying when I see it. 
I hate when he hurts hisself!  

But then he always seems to find a way to turn my frown upside down. 

(or maybe I just miss Butler!)

Well now I'm off to search for my missing GS cookies. 
This crime has Monkey's name written all over it!

Monday, March 7, 2011

Is it over yet?

shh, you hear that? YES, it's SILENCE. 

The boys are sound asleep. Finally peace and serenity. 

Well,  I was so wrapped up and excited about me and Butler's Face Time, I forgot to let everyone know I got my job back!! So, for the past 2 days I have been working my booty off.
I feel like it's been a week.
Which is one of the reasons I'm in the "I'm ready for this deployment to be over"moods

Yesterday wasn't as bed as today, just worked all day then came home forgot to make dinner and went to sleep.

Today on the other hand, not so easy...
I barely got any sleep and had to be up at the CRACK of dawn to go to work. Thanks to Butler's 6 hr time difference, his good morning email woke me up.
Had a semi great day at work other than rude customers and being on my feet in one spot all day.
Once I picked the boys up, my day went from bad to horrible! Chubby's stomach isn't feeling well which reminded me I had to go to Tricare to switch our insurance back to North region. Before I headed to Langley, I went to walmart to buy Monkey a new car seat cause somehow Destructive Dan broke his belt on the seat. Walking around Wally World and Monkey falls out of the cart onto the ground and is screaming. Panicked and embarrassed, I pick him up and start to proceed to the front, forgetting EVERY thing else I needed but the car seat.
I finally get them in the car and  head to  Langley. I get to the Tricare office and in the car the sign said they closed at 1830. Well, that was apparently just Meaghan vision because the sign clearly said 1630 and it was already 5:01.
(guess I need glasses with better lens)
Gave up on tricare and went to the commissary to pick up something for dinner.
Forgot the WORLD goes to the commissary after work.
Stood in line for at least 30 mins.
Got dinner stuff and headed home.
Get home and it always takes me more than one trip to get the boys and everything into the house, but today it took at least an extra 4 trips.
The last thing I take in the house id the car seat.
Walk in the house and somehow forget I had a door knob and jammed my fingers (not one but THREE) between the door knob and the box.
That was the straw that broke the camel's back.
I stormed upstairs and just sat there dwelling on my miserable day and how Butler should have been here to help!
But, now I'm over it and moving on with my night!

Friday, March 4, 2011


On a lighter note, today was a GREAT day.
After the disappointment of just having to go up to my job JUST to fill-out paper work, I got a phone call from Butler excitedly saying he's going to be FaceTime'ing me today!
I don't know about other ships, but ours doesn't have equipment to video chat. 
(They stopped today and had wifi.)
 So, for the past 6 months I only hear his voice or imagine hearing it over email. I rushed home, just to see my hubby! 
It was about an hour later and I was looking at my husband's face and lips move at the SAME time. 
I was so giddy with joy, as was he, we spent the most of the conversation staring at each other smiling!
It was so refreshing to talk to him, hope we can do it again soon!

On another note, Chubby never ceases to amaze me! 
He learns something new everyday.
Here is today's lesson.

He's holding his own bottle! 
Proud parent moment :-)

Don't ask, Don't tell.

I'm watching What would you do
The scenario is what would you do if you seen an openly gay couple in uniform. 
This is the second time the DADT policy has been brought to my attention, I take it as a sign to blog about it. 
Personally, I wouldn't say anything.
I don't agree with the PDA that is outside of military guidelines, but just being affectionate and letting it be known is okay with me.
I support the gay & lesbian community.
As Americans, we live by freedom of expression, but we aren't free to express who we love? 
It doesn't make sense. 
The heart wants what the heart wants, this phrase has been ringing in my head all week.
In my opinion, you can't help who you love.

  I feel that nobody has the right to direct what  goes on in your personal life or your bedroom.
To me, I think the don't ask don't tell policy should be at a person's OWN discretion. If he or she wants to be open with their sexuality, its THEIR decision. They shouldn't be forced to not be themselves. 
They serve in the same military, they protect and serve the same way every other service members. The only difference is their sexual orientation. 
We are all human whether gay, straight, black, white, green or yellow :-)

Opinions are like assholes, everyone has one and I would love to hear yours! 
What would you do?

*This is MY opinion. I know it's very controversial, but please respect MY opinion.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Proud wife.

As you know, this is only Butler's second year in the Navy and our first deployment. Last week he was working very hard and studying to get his 1st pin for aviation (I think that's what he said), but to make a long story short,  he got the pin! Yay! I know I'm extra excited for no reason but just to hear something good come out of this deployment made my day and I am extremely proud of the progress he has made.
I feel like such a proud wife :)

Back in America.
I gotten one of my tasks on March bucket list  crossed off and I'll be starting working again tomorrow bright & early!!
Now hopefully I can finish everything else!

Rolling in the Deep.

Of course I purchased Adele's CD, 21, on Monday. I loved Adele since her 1st CD, 19, with chasing pavements. She has such a great voice. The fact that I can hit the notes in the shower is just a plus...

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Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Wordless Wednesday

I miss this guy.
Soon, he'll be mine again.

hello, I'm a Mac.

I've FINALLY ditched the PC!

Yesterday my MacBook Pro came! After waiting ALL day for FedEx to get here, Christmas (in March) was finally here!!!

This was Butler's "I'm sorry for leaving you alone with my 2 monsters and missing every holiday imaginable" gift! The guilt FINALLY paid off!!

Isn't she a beauty?!
I fell in LOVE.

Thanks Hubs!!
(happy wife, happy life)

Monday, February 28, 2011

Almost there!

Yesterday marked the 6th month of Butler being gone! A whole HALF of a year! I thought by now I would be bald from pulling my hair out. I was so afraid (or maybe just pregnant & hormonal) that I wasn't going to be able to handle a 1 yr old & a newborn, but I must say I've done a pretty good job. In the last six months I have moved  twice (once in the new apartment & back from GA), had a baby without my spouse, and taken care of everything that Butler used to take care of when he was home. These 6 months flew so the next few will be a piece of cake!

Bye Bye February, Hello March!

March is one of my favorite months. It starts the beginning of Spring, my favorite season. Got a lot to get done before deployment is over!

My March Bucket List

1. get Monkey potty trained. Or at least start.

2. Apply for Paul Mitchell so I can start in April 

3. Get everything for the apartment straightened out so we'll be ready move when Butler gets home

4. Be persistent about Your Baby can read (I've been slacking since we've been back)

5. Start a workout regime.

6. Start working again!!

7. And get prepared for Butler's homecoming!!!

We will so how much of this I've accomplished once March 31st rolls around!

Thursday, February 24, 2011

getting back in the swing of things.

So, how has this week been for me?

I've been trying to reintegrate myself back into Virginia life and it has not been to great for me! 

First, it's taking me a full week to get everything unpacked and in the right place. I have a horrible case of OCD ( I get it honestly from my mother.) I hate clutter and mess.
I live by the "everything has a place" motto.
The boys' room is the WORST room in the house.
I have gotten everything else in the house done but our and the boys' room.

Second, at the same time I'm trying to fix this apartment, I'm looking for another one. I hate that when it's time to find a place to live, DB is always conveniently underway or even better DEPLOYED!
I'm always communicating about our new place through email.
But, I think I found one.
I hope this is THE ONE, I'm tired of moving.
(this is the FOURTH apartment in 2 yrs, yea I know RIDICULOUS)

Third, school, work, and childcare!
Trying to get my job back has been the hardest thing yet, I need my Old Navy discount back!
The next hardest job is finding a childcare provider that is good enough for my babies. I'm torn between daycare centers a and home day cares.
Chubby would do great with home child care because he's an infant, but Monkey would do better with daycare centers to interact with other kids.
I'm just confused and hopefully I find one and SOON!
School really isn't that hard, but finding the time (and sitter) to go out to Va Beach is the issue!!

I'm definitely back in reality :-)

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Man, how time flies!

My babies are getting so old so fast :-(
It feels like just yesterday Monkey was turning one and Chubby was just born.
They are exactly 18 months apart!
Monkey will be TWO 2 months from today and Chubby is 5 months already.
I can't believe how fast time flies! I miss the old times
Well let's see some pictures and dwell on the past.

Here is Monkey on his first day home from the hospital.
He was so sweet & precious.

Here he is at his 1st birthday party

Monkey today getting in the way of me unpacking.

Here's Chubby at 2 weeks
All he did was sleep, he was so peaceful.

Here he is today.

Next thing I know, I'm gonna be watching them graduate high school,
go to college and graduate and then get married,
and have kids of their own.
I'm trying so hard not to think about those things... I wish they could be babies FOREVER! 

Monday, February 21, 2011


My past weekend/week has been really HECTIC. I finally got all of my things packed and ready to go back to VA and we left on Friday night. It took a whole car and truck to get me back home. I don't know how one large suitcase and 2 bags turned into a whole truck bed full of stuff, but it did and thanks to my step dad and godfather, we & it made it back safely!

When I finally got home, I walked up to find my door partially already unlocked (my deadbolt wasn't locked and I know I definitely locked it) When I walked in the house I seen my EMPTY television stand where the 50 in. flat screen used to sit and my closet rummaged through and PlayStation missing. Yes, we were robbed! Unfortunately, my backdoor doesn't have a deadbolt and the seal on the door is broken. So, whoever broke in came through the back and went out the front. I really feel bad because neither the TV or the PlayStation was ours. Luckily, the guy whose it is was fine and won't let DB pay him his money back. Needless to say, when DB does get home we'll be moving to VA Beach!

On a good note, DB's boat threw a party for the sailors in his department who had babies while they were gone. It really wasn't much but it's great they FINALLY acknowledged it! (that's him on the left :-)) Congrats guys!

My house is cluttered and I still haven't gotten around to fixing it. So my thoughts are just as cluttered. I guess I can say welcome back to reality, Meaghan!

Friday, February 11, 2011

This week in a nutshell CHAOTIC. I feel like I haven't had ANY time to do anything, but I find myself in the same spot doing NOTHING wondering where the time went. I'm supposed to be heading back to VA (yea, I fled when deployment came) next Saturday. While down in Georgia for the last 4 months i managed to double everything I brought down here. Obviously, a little retail therapy is the way i cope with deployment, not remembering that all this stuff will have to get back home some way. So the majority of this week was supposed to be spent packing. Well that plan has failed me! I've done everything but packed. All I've done is take all of our clothes out of the drawers and left them on the bed... Never in the suitcases they go in.

Talked to DB yesterday and he told me the date that's being thrown around for homecoming and I'm not too pleased. Let's just say it's a little later than expected but it's not that bad since we've already made it this far. What's a few more months going to do? Just makes room for an even better homecoming.

I hope it's too long until I write again and hope i've packed my life up when I do write again!

Friday, February 4, 2011

I'm not alone. REALLY.

I've been surfing around today reading other military wives blogs about deployment and I finally feel, I'm really not alone. For the past 5 months, I felt like I was the ONLY person going through the pain, sadness, loneliness and everything else that comes with deployment. I felt that nobody else (even the other thousands of spouses that have deployed loved ones) knew how I felt. I know there are other people, but there was NOBODY like me. Before I started to blog, I felt like I was the only spouse whose husband has never met his son or is missing the vital months of their babies growing up. I was the only one whose husband missed their b-day, wedding anniversary and birth of his child. But, after a long time searching for somebody like me I've found them. I'm thankful to have found a group of women who aren't afraid to express their true feelings about military life and  deployments, they have given a positive outlook and this very long awaited homecoming and given me strength to get through.

MilSpouse Weekly Round-Up #22

I've been on the computer all day looking at some blogs from other military wives to get some ideas and my creative juices rolling. I ran into A LOT of blogs I can relate to. I cam across the "Milspouse weekly Round-up" and I felt like it was something I WOULD love to join. As I looked into all 36 blogs that were on there I got a little scared. For some reason, I felt like this was high school and these were the "mean girls" and I'm a newbie and they aren't going to accept me. I know it's only a computer, but I feel like my blog does not compare to theirs... But hey, it's time to take chance and I'm gonna go for it!

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Military Wife answers dumb questions (LANGUAGE R)

this cracked me up but this is so TRUE. If you ever wanna know how being a wife of a deployed sailor, airman or soilder, watch this before you ask questions!

Picture Day!

Today I decided would be the day I FINALLY gotten the boys pictures taken. Now, I'm not the parent who goes to the photo studio every month, every holiday or even every birthday to go get their pictures taken. Darryl is almost 2 and not including today, he's only taken one professional picture. But since my in laws and everybody else has nagged about, I gave into temptation! I went to the studio already expecting Kaleb (my 4 month old) to act a little crazy. Darryl on the other hand is very photogenic and LOVES the camera. So I was prepared to deal with Kaleb. When I finally get everybody dressed in the car and on our way, they begin to scream and cry. 5 mins later I finally get a quiet car and look in the backseat both are sleep. Not realizing I booked a 12:00 appointment and Darryl didn't take his 11:00 nap. As I take him out the car, I think to myself this can either go really good or really bad. I take them inside everything was fine, everybody smiling and happy. We take Kaleb's pics first and he handles it like a pro. Now, it's Darryl's turn... He sits for 2 seconds then hops up and plays with EVERYTHING in the studio. It took at least 6 or 7 shots to get him a  good one. He finally starts to cooperate then it became time for a picture of them both. Darryl runs away in a fit. It took all of 3 hrs to get out of the studio and all I wanted was a pic of each of them and them together. I wind up with a horrible family shot and a headache. And we have to do it all over again for v-day! But here is the outcome:

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

"Working Homecoming Date"

Those 3 words were the highlight of my Monday. We FINALLY have a working homecoming date to when they come back home! To me this means that there is an end coming soon! Be it March or April my husband in gonna be back SOON! Of course I have no idea when this date is because of  OPSEC I won't know until who knows when, BUT i have a very good feeling it's going to be March. Crossing fingers, thinking positive and speaking it into existence. It's been 5 months since I've seen Mr. B. I cannot WAIT to see him :-)

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Wait it's February already?!

I haven't been keeping up with my posting. I've been busy with preparing to move on back to VA and wait for Mr. B to get home. I can't believe it's already the SECOND month of 2011, this year is already moving to fast! But hey, I am not complaining, getting closer and closer to hubby's homecoming!
This month Chubby turned 4 months and is starting to use his hands and scoot (moving WAY to fast) Monkey is slowly easing his way into the "terrible two's." He is into EVERYTHING he can get his hands on. I've been trying to get back home to my quaint little apartment that I've abandoned. I've had some reality checks this month about school and life pretty much. But like I always whatever doesn't kill me will make me stronger and god wouldn't put me through stuff I can't handle. Mr. B should be coming home in March *crossing fingers* I'm speaking this into existence. It really sucks he won't be here on our anniversary or Valentine's day, but hey when money calls! Hopefully I'll get to see him next month!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

4 months down, ?? to go.

Deployment. The bittersweet of the military life. Mr. B has been deployed for 4 months and we just received an email saying we're halfway through but there isn't a definite date on when they are coming home. He left early so why wouldn't he come home early? I hate the uncertainty of not knowing exactly when he's coming home. On one hand I love all the benefits of the military from the insurance to the shopping discounts but on the other hand I feel like I've sacrificed my husband and father of my children. Hubbs wasn't here for the birth of his 2nd baby and now he's 3 months and the only way he knows his son is through pictures. He's missed b-day parties, anniversaries and holidays.

We had a conversation about reenlistment today. We have the choice of reenlisting and him being on the ship for another year or not reenlisting and trying to survive in this economy.I feel like I want him to stay in for the benefits and the money but, part of me wants him just to get out and be home with us. I grew up a military brat and always wanted to marry someone in the military just like my daddy, but I never knew what the military really was about because my mom just made it seem so cool when in reality, the life of a military wife is very sacrificial and hard. Don't get me wrong I love the perks of being a "sailor's wife" but I really just wished my husband was here.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

New to this.

As you may already figured out, I'm new to this blogging thing. I 've had the urge to write a blog for a while just haven't had the time nor patience to do so. So now I'm trying to figure out how to customize and make it my own. I have nothing else to doso within the next couple of days it should be up and running :)